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This was beautiful!! I've recently started reading again in hopes of expressing myself more verbally (in my head at least). Your courage of befriending your shadows encourages me to find perspective and the love. Love you Beth and can't wait to read more!! 💐🩵

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This is one of the most profoundly moving pieces I have ever read. Thank you Beth for your honesty, your humor, your willingness to share both pain and foibles. I am a fan forever. When is the book coming out?

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God. It was hard enough to write this, but dammit there is a book or two or three knocking away at my heart trying to get out. Thanks for being so supportive..

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Wow. Not only have you helped others heal during the AIDS crisis, and through your joyous acting - your heartfelt writing is bringing a new level of healing to all that read. Thank you for making your readers feel less alone.

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I love you honey. xoxox

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Whoa, there it is! At once liberating yet so weighty to read. Enlightening and maddening. Masterful Beth. You amaze me - this one is truly moving as many have expressed more adequately before me here. Such a meaningful and vulnerable view through your life's lens. What courage (not surprising of course) to share it all here!

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Thank you for always being so supportive and loving. I am every grateful and always blessed.xoxox

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I love you Beth. If I could post a picture I would of the beige linen vest you gave me with more of your beautiful clothes, I still have it, I still wear it. There we all are. It's no wonder we end up in Show Business. Rage-full fathers, depressed or dangerous mothers. The desire to create and maybe to escape. The Hollywood machine alone is enough to traumatize anybody for the rest of their life. Yes, there's definitely a book in this. I love your writing. I'm taking a mental health day. Too much is happening at the same time and most of it is completely out of my control . Thank you for sharing your soul.🙏🏻❤️

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Valerie,

This was so so so so hard to write but it just forced it's way on to the page. Most of us in Show Biz are carrying some form of trauma and yes the work both soothes and exacerbates the psyche. I am blessed in so many many ways and grateful to be able to share these thoughts and feelings. Yes do take a mental health day. I woke up terrified of this piece going out into the ether but now I am so glad that it did. Love you honey. On we go ...

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You are such a special person, Beth. Period.

My mother had a life a bit like your childhood and can see the scars on her being. I have other dear friends with similar trauma. I think feeling you don’t have to hide and bury such trauma helps it lose its power over you. Therapists can listen but close dear friends who love you implicitly can also. Having close friends who help you feel connected and love just as you are ... exemplify treasures!!

All great heroes and heroines have origin stories. I treasure knowing your’s.

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Thank you dear one. This was very hard to write but it touched a chord in so many people for a variety of reasons that I am glad I got it down. Hope all is well with you!

xoxo

BB

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Whoo boy, honey. When I come back I will be your bodyguard. Are you able to work out?

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Yes I joined a gym and have been walking my feet off doing the 30 day challenge without a car in Los Angeles. Today I was too troubled to do much of anything, but I will be back at it tomorrow. This piece took a lot out of me to write and to publish. Love love you!

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Of course it did. con amor.

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Hi Beth. It’s me Laura in CO. Thank you for the courage to share your story. It is beautifully written despite the content and memories of physical and psychological pain and abuse. There is a book,

between these words. Please submit to editorial columns. Does Substack have “ share” buttons?

What a story. I always say God gave me my sister because because he knew my mother. Like you my sister is a best friend. We saved each other from a narcissistic mother. Therapy is the ongoing sounding board. Thank you! Keep writing…

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Hi Laura. Thank you for your kind response. This was hella hard to write and I am grateful for the support. Yes at the bottom of the article you can hit share and it will go to your social media outlets. Please send to whomever you think might benefit from reading it. We are each other's healers. And yes than GOD for sisters.

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Just so you know, you are always welcome here in Rockland, ME anytime. Just fly in to Portland. I’ll come down and pick you up. Lots of love.❤️

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Thanks love. That sounds divine.

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a powerful accurate picture of abuse and its consequences. Love the style. Rising above the insult of your mother's rage. thanks.

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Thank you for reading me and weighing in. I truly appreciate it.

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Thank you for sharing. So beautifully written and makes me think of things I sometimes feel in a new way. Thank you.

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Thank you for reading and becoming a subscriber. I truly appreciate it.

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